My brain is falling apart!

So, here I am...at home. And Sean's at his house...at Southampton. Rochdale-Southampton....about 10000000000 miles away from each other :O

So as usual...I get panicky, tad-paranoid, lonely and he scrapes at my mind every bloody second...
Which basically means I love him...wayyy to freaking much :D (dw..am not gonna stop loving you :D)

I think I need help from my friends to keep me calm and not obsessive. I can't handle the change from practically living with him, to not seeing him at all and only hearing from him every 3 days.

But i've just got under a week...minus the facts it's Valentines day today and I'm alone. It's his birthday on Wednesday...and I won't be there to celebrate it with him. but the week after we're going to have our own personal celebrations...so that's gonna have to be enough to keep me sane...ish?

And I realise how much my new found Uni friends are sooo great. Imogen, my lovely friend who relates all my female stuff is superb. We have a good giggle and chill out and she brings out my locked away feminicity as I lacked the friends at home to go shopping and understand me so well.

And recently Matt who helps me relate with how men see things...so when I'm freaking out over Sean, he can tell me how it can be seen and that actually Sean didn't mean me to take it the way I thought and that I should calm down.

So basically. If I stick to my plan...I should hope that nothing makes me upset, paranoid...etc. I'm gonna behave and be a good girlfriend. I think the plan is to keep calm and really think things through :D

I'm also scared...I need to go to the doctors with my throat...and I'm worried. Will keep you updated :P

Love you all...

HAPPY VALENTINE's DAY!!!!!!

xx