He's gone...

...and apparently taken half of me with him :(

So, it's Dev Week next week, and Seanie has gone home early to watch football :D which is good for him, as I know he misses his family (and pets), but bad for me because I didn't want him to leave, but then feel guilty for wanting to keep him to myself and away from his family, the people who love him and have know him longer than I ever will :(

It's quite early for even my day today. Stayed with Sean over-night, not wanting to loose any time with him AT ALL. I walked with him till we had to split, forced on a smile and watched him leave. Then I had to walk back to my house, looking oh-so-special with tears rolling down my face (much like they are now). I literally ran the last few feet just so I could hide in the comfort of my room and sob my heart out.

I don't even know if this makes me clingy or just so totally in love with him. Also, struggling with 'that time of the month' my emotions are wild, and I don't know what I'm going to do with myself now :(

Since were away from each other, I'm going to miss Valentines Day and his 19th birthday (which on the positive side lets me get his final present know he's not here) but still...I'd rather him be here and sneak about with his present...

So basically, you can see my whining is a form of the tiredness and sleep deprivation and hormones and uncontrolable love :(

I'm not even compalining as I'd go nights without sleeping for him...but not he's not here and I'm already falling apart it seems...

Anyones have an opinion?

xxxxx