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So, recently I have been slowly sinking into my loneliness and sadness now that Sean has gone. It usually happens on long periods away from each other...and I'm sure to Sean I look like some possesive freak, when actually I'm just so connected and in love with him, every time he leaves he takes half of me with him :(

I've already expalined how I cried when I walked away from him after saying goodbye, but I was hit with a wave of emotion last night in one of the most unlikely places...RB's nightclub :S

Everytime I have been out t night he has always been there. And RB's is a favourite place of mine and my friends. So we were all dancing, myself feeling a little awkward as I didn't have my usual 'dance partner'...and a certain song came on...

As it's a 90's club, you would expect Michael Jackson to be played, something I totally bypassed in my mind. So when 'black and white' came on, everyone paused, looked at me, my friend gasped and there was loads of sympathy...but I couldn't help myself and broke down in the club.

I probably did then look like the depressed, possesive freak...

It sucked majorly...plus everyone had been asking me the whole night 'where was my other half?', and that 'we always come as a pair,' or that 'it's weird, me being by myself...'.
They were all words of help and comfort most probably...but it only reinforced the nagging thought in my head of how much I'm missing him.

:( :( :( :(

It's only 2 weeks, but you don't know how easy it is to just miss a simple kiss, or the touch of his hand. It's not as if I'm sex mad and missing that. I am, but there are more simpler, more romantic things too that seem more personal.
I'm just craving him so much it's becoming unbearable.

My bed feels so empty, I'm used to sleeping cuddled up, soaking in his warm body heat...now I feel lonely and scared in my bed, and freezing. My personal heater has left me :(

I'm just feeling down, but if certain monthly cycles wern't taking place I'd probably feel the same anyway.

It's so odd, becasue, without diving too much into past relations...I honeslty felt nothing like this with exes. I was happy to have my own bed and wasn't too fussed if I wasn't going to see them for a while, like on holidays. With Sean I get upset if he goes back to his house for a few hours...or doesn't text me.

I don't know if I'm too clingy or if this is just right...

Somebody help?

xxxx