Waaaa *sob sob*

He's left....he bloody left me again :( not fair.

... :( :( :(

Past week has been a blur, been very slow apart from Wednesday night where we went out dressed as Muppets for Scott's 19th. Was ok, apart from Sean getting pissed and throwing up around my bedroom...and of course, me having to co-ordinate him ¬¬ and as usual I threw up again...I'm getting concerned :O

Today was Reaseheath, spent with less people and myself being alone :( but was cool because we got to handle, fly and feed this gorgous harris hawk called Axel :D then I cleaned out the Servals bedroom...he kept hissing at me...was funnee :D

Have a major headache and the coach ride home was bad and made my stomach VERY uneasy, so not sure if I'll end up hurling my guts up later :S

However, am glad my period came on. It was too days late and I was shitting myself. I know way was I pregnant, and the thought only crossed my mind once or twice, but I was worried as to what it's delay was...did it just want to cause me that much extra discomfort, plus throw in a bit of worrying/panicking...thanks body :(

And the past week I was like "I want my period to start..." and now I'm like "I want it to fuck off!!!"

Tmoz I'm going shopping to cheer myself up with my friend Emma, whilst picking up some photos from post office. This will probably make me sad as most of them are me and Sean...and that is going to be difficult.

Woke up at 5 to see him off, all the while fighting sleep, and the tears. When he left at 6ish...i don't think I got to sleep from the crying till 7. So am also a little tired and grouchy today.

So the plan for tonight...already in my comfies :) then finish up on pc, slap a film on, have my tea (stop listening to bloody romantic Westlife music which only makes it all worse) and x-stitch.

Hopefully the next week will speed up as I'll keep myself entertained with Uni. Then the week after I'm home, and my mum is off so I can distract myself. Then over the two weeks at home, I shall meet up with my good friend Kerry :D and do stuff. then the last week I am reunited with Sean in (hopefull) Southampton :D am scared, but also excited...as is expected.

Shall keep you updated...and Kerry, sorry if this was too sad...I tried to write down how I was feeling without over slushy stuff...it's written basically how it is....apart from this:

I LOVE SEAN SO MUCH AND MISS HIM AND WANT TO CRY!!!!!!! xxxxxxxxxxx