Not a positive blog I must admit. My moods shit and I don't know what to do. Telling me to cheer up won't help either.
So...the previous incident the other day of things being said to the wrong person by the one i love the most has caused me to become the laughing stock. I don't know what was said, and I don't know if my bf has been laughing/bitching about me behind my back...but either way this...BITCH has no right to bitch about me to my bf and ask him to talk to me about what I'm doing. I have more fucking right than she ever will so how DARE she say I'm commenting of facebook too much...she's not the one dating him....urgh the HOARE!!!
I've never said a bad word to her, no matter what I think off her, but now I couldn't give a shit of what she thinks or says...if i ever meet her...I will probably most likely kill her. Does she really think my by is going to jump and and do what she says...if nothing has/is going on and what he's told me is true (I trust him 100%...but I'm keeping my options clear) then she's just a jealous slag who is trying to test if she can get him to jump at the click of her fingers.
...she'll have no bloody fingers left if she tries anything else ¬¬
My emotions are fucked. I'm going from dead and emotionless, to wanting to cry, then to wanting to scream and hit things...all for one fucking slag who needs to stick to one man rahter than becoming the crappiest hoare/slag/bitch/cow EVER!!!
And I'm not being cowardly and chicken and bitching behing her back, because if i EVER meet here properly and talk to her i will kindly tell her what she is...not what i think off her..what she IS.
Urgh...........wanting to cry and throw things now :*(
Meh....anyway, yesterday was cool. Went swimming and got my bf to fight his fears and go down the water slide :D and I found out one of my closests mates is going out with another of my mates...so just hope it works out for them :D Best of luck!!!
Then we went out, and it wasn't that bad in Brannigans...bit typical music...repetitive and sooo packed and warm. It was fun minus the lack of money and getting home sober :P but it was a fun night out in general.
Today has been a good day. Lie in, slow day, great random sex ;) until he got that frigging text saying something about this better be my bf or she'll get her head bit off. Why the fuck would I text her at all? Delusional retarded fucker.......
See what happens...i love this lad so freaking much that I'm hurting on the inside. It makes me sad...i don't like how i can be but i've tried and succeeded so well the past few weeks but she's going to fuck it all up. I don't wanna argue with my bf over a piece of shit...but it's actually usually her fucking fault. If I chop her up and throw her in a river I think we'll be ok :P
I'm so confused..i'm tired, I want to be comforted and I want my bf so much :(
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