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SMILES!!!!!!

So today has been a relatively mixed emotion day :O

But shall start from Tuesday...something I can't really remember :P haha. I only had one lecture in the morning. And then I did alot of work on this bloody assingment which totally puts me in a stump :O but but but!!! My baby cream cat sylvanian family kitty kat has turned up. They have actual names, but I'm calling her dolly...and I'm so sad I want more :O ...heehee. They remind me of my childhood ok. But you should see the teddies and toys my room consists of...it's shocking for a 19 year old girl. But when I get my own house I will find room for them all. They will be decorated round the house all sad like :P Sylvanian overload!!

Tuesday night (yes it needs it's own paragraph) was amazing. I didn't get ill, I didn't throw up, I lasted the whole night, I wore sensible shoes and therefore my feet didn't hurt, I got pissed, Sean did too, We didn't argue. I ate all my sexy chips...so overall an amazing night. The only problem was the hangover the morning after haha.

Wednesday.
Was hungover, AND my period pains are amazing awful. Have never hurt so much, and yesterday I was crippled over from the pain. I was actually quite scared. And am now considering the implant, which is scary...as its all needly crap :O *help*
We didn't do much yesterday. Did work, bought some munchies and Sean looked after me a little...which was nice :D

Today.
Went to first lecture and he didn't turn up...major fail.
Went to town and found the jumper I have been wanting for ages on sale for a £10. So bought it asap. Also, the ring that Sean is buying me came in stock and it's gorgeous though there is a size issue. We will see :)
Now I'm at sean's. Have been doing more of my assngment, but noe I've stopped becasue I've come to a blockage as i need some results to carry on and write, but as I dont have them yet, there's sod all I can do other than chat waffle :P

So am going to chill for a while until I get more notes :D

I love Sean!!!!

Byeees!!!
xxx

De Ja Vu...unfortunatly.

Hello.
So I'm keeping updated for you all again :D

Well I wrote on Friday, but I didn't mention Reaseheath. We massaged tapirs :D it was actually quite fun. There like giant doggies which could break your toes :P

Saturday involved some shopping and some swimming with Sean, Scott and Imogen :) it was really good. Did some excercise, but got yelled at for kissing Sean. Some man who was swimming totally flipped and started yelling, saying we shouldn't be tonging in front of children, and that it was like porn.

What kind of porn does he watch???

And I personally reckon he's just jelous he couldn't get any...and his kids were fat :P

I made a healthy tea which I am proud of...chicken breast, corn on the cob, baby potatoes and a salad :D

Yesterday involved finishing off my poster for Uni and watching TV with Sean. Though in the evening we set mammal traps (nice ones!!) and went bat hunting. I tore up my ankle on thorns and nettles, because I had leggings on...so they still itch at the moment...it's my own fault...but I would still appreciate some sympathy...:D

Today we had a boring lecture for the second half. But the first, we went back and looked out our traps and found some mice and vole type creatures. All very cute, and I wanted to keep them all :D

Am at Sean's doing my last assignment...and that bitch is back stalking him. It is very upsetting as I predict she is going to be there all the time again, and I'm not sure if I can handle it this time around. Already in a bad, saddened mood, so I don't think this will help.

I don't know why she affects me, probably because she knows it affects me, and I can see her smug face as she types on Sean's wall and knows how I will react if I see it. I think the only reassurance is that she is too scared to say anything to my face...and to be honest, I can totally beat her :D

Meh...very mixed emotions. Myself in a bad mood. Guilt for being in a bad mood and therefore taking it out on everyone. Protection and defence over Sean...MY Sean. And love and all that...and then just being down because of it all.

I don't know.

I ordered a Sylvanian Family baby...should be here soon...want to go spend all my money :P

Okies...see ya for now :D

xxxx

Revision!

So it's been a week.
And that's because their's nothing to write about. It's all been revision and assingments. I handed one in today...and one yesterday. And I still have two more to go!!

And then I have to revise :D

So just basically saying hi :D and I love Sean.

He is sat with me now...were wathcing TV, and we watched Life :D was good. Tmoz me and Sean are gonna have a good night tmoz of relaxation.

This is gonna be thee shortest blog ever :P

I'll keep updated more. Go into detail and all that :D

I LOVE SEAN!!!

xxx

Been A While

Am sooo sorry for lack of updating-ness :O

And therefore, due to epic non-speaking, I can't really blab on about everything you've missed. So shall have to brief you :D

Southampton: OMG. Was totally amazing. Things were a little bad for Sean's rents, but even through that they were very hospitable and I loved it. Plus his parents are amazing. I have no idea what I was worrying about...and I can't wait to go back...and to steal their new doggie :D and to see the kitty again. She loves me more than you Sean!!!! :)
Even going to the football games was amazing. I thought I'd be bored shitless, and I thought I'd really not fit in with the freaky football crew, but I managed to fit in amazingly well and I enjoyed the football aswell...but I WILL NOT be converted into a Saint's Fan :P

I think the only really negative thing was the shitty, awful train ride down to Southampton. Don't think I've ever felt so scared or lost in my life...

Anyway, I'm back at Uni now, and have been for a week :P it's all be work, which I am still doing now. I probably wotn get a rest because then the exams start. But we did have a good night out, but I had to leave at 1 because that was the day I came down with a bloody cold! I am suffering so much. At first I wasn't trying to let it get to me or bug anyone, but today I feel awful...and i'm therefore upsetting people around me with my depression :(

Am trying to work....:O

Anyway, will keep you updated like I used to. Ooooh I bought a cute cardigan for my new dress yesterday and some new gladiator sandles because I'm so cool. Thought my mum is concerned why me and Cez are having a personality flip :P

Okies, byeeees xxxxxxxx

Nearly there :D

Aaaagh...1 day till I'm off to Southampton to see my lovely Sean :D...am so excited but very nervous. Scary stuff :P

Well I havn't written since Saturday...because nothing much has happened. Apart from Tuesday night when I slept over at Kez's again and freaked myself out by the film 'Shutter' and then relaxed with 'Liar Liar'. Kerry makes good chilli and garlic bread :D She should work full time at uni to feed me :D

I have packed and re-packed soo many times this week. But this morning I went thouroughly threw everything and have finally packed properly minus the odd things like toothbrush, straightners...etc :D

My mum is gonna have to visit me at uni and bring up more bags that include uni needing stuff. I think she said on Tuesday then go to Chester town...where I will drag Sean with us :D because he still needs to meet my mother :)

I finished re-reading New Moon last night, and no matter how many million times I have read it, I still love it and still have a few mottos from the book. My newest being:

Love is irrational, the more you love somebody, the less anything makes sense...

Which more me and my experiance with Sean, couldn't be more true :D I love him ^^

It's very cold at the moment, and there is nothing to do anymore. I painted my nails green and they look very cool :D apparently it's 'Ninja' colour...haha :D "hiiiiiyaaa! *karate chop*"

I'm bored :D but felt I need to update my blog or you'll all think I've gone and forgotten you. Tonight I feel I should have a early sleep as I have to get up at 7.30-8.00 ish to get a lift to Manchester Picadilly and then get my train at 10.27 which is 4 hours and 45 minutes long....oh my gaaaawd! I hope I don't die of boredom :P

Anyway, I'll leave you with some more beautiful words of Mr Cullen:

As if I could exist without needing you.

I wish lads were this dependant of woomen...like addicted :D

Ah well...bye bye my lovelies :)

xxxx